a cut of the day - iii

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NO arrival of good news. I never swipe my phone open without forebodings. All my friends and I talk about seems not frustration enough to suit the occasion—a bed of mares, a mirror of tears, a house of pregnant pauses, and a life being every bit as it always ought to be.

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